It’s not Easy

It’s not Easy

                It’s not easy to be a fangirl/ fanboy. What we feel and what we think is different from what others are thinking of. Especially to those who are not fangirls and fanboys out there, they will never ever understand us why we’re like this.

                As a fangirl, of course we love and support our favorite artists, whether it’s a solo artist or a group. When there’s good news about them, we celebrate happily as if we are the one who jackpotted in the lottery. There are news about them having a new show or they will appear in a show or they will have a new CF or they will have a new album or they will have a concert and so on. And the best news for us, fangirls, is that they received awards because of their hard work and ours too. But not all the time we receive good news. There is also a time for bad news. Most of the time, the bad news are about antis attacking our boys, there are also news about some injuries they’ve got, also news that they are in an accident (the news about Kyu who almost died is the worst)  and the most unwanted news is the separation of the members from each other due to contract problem or another.

                As I said earlier, we have different feelings to our boys, a great affection for them. Hearing good news about them is not a problem; of course we all like to hear good news so we’re happy for them. But when we heard of a disaster, I mean a bad news, we will transform into a sea or should I say an ocean of monsters trying to protect our beloved boys. Majority of us will over react over the news. Of course many people will ask, ‘Oh man, what’s with these angry mobs? Why are they overreacting about the news?’

As a fangirl, we love stuffs related to our idols. It’s anything that has their names or name of the group. For example is a magazine. You saw a mag with their picture on it. Since you’re a fan of them, even the info about them inside the mag is two paragraphs only, you will buy it though you have no money left in your pocket.

As a fangirl, we love to watch them and listen to their songs. So we watch all their videos and all their songs in Youtube and other sites, downloading them, putting it in our phones or ipod or mp3 players or in computer and watch them hundred times.

As a fangirl, we are curious about them so we keep in touch with our Facebook accounts and other social networking sites to get updates. Researching for hours is worth it because it’s our happiness to know more about them. And for that, you will be called a netizen.

As a fangirl, we wanted to see them personally. We dreamed of going to their showcase events (fan meeting) or CONCERTS.

There are so many things we need to do as a fan girl. We have a lot of things we need or we wanted to fulfill to reach our goal and that goal is to capture their hearts like what they did to ours. But being a fangirl is NOT as EASY as you think. There are so many frustrations, so many problems we have to face.

First is the language. Language barrier is a major problem within us and the boys. Our enemies will say, “Duh! What’s that song? You can’t even understand it and the way you pronounce the lyrics, it’s so horrible!!” So the answer for that is, “Its not with the lyrics, it’s with the heart.” So what if we can’t understand it, there’s Google for translations! :-P Another is when we want to watch them in Youtube. In order to understand what they are saying, we need to find a video with subtitles, right? Some will say they will study Hanguk-eo so that they will understand them. That’s a nice idea but how long will you have to wait? Is it for two days? Is it for a month? We all know that learning a new language is not that easy to accomplish. Even your native language you can speak it fluently, how come  a new language? But nice try, break a leg!

Second is the distance. We are in the Philippines and they are in South Korea. I know we are both in Asia but we’re still miles away from them. If ever there will be a showcase or a concert, I’m so envious with Korean ELFs and Korean Kpop fans. We will say, “I wish I’m a Korean! Or I wish I’m living in Korea!

Third is the money. Well you can’t buy Kpop stuffs if you don’t have this. You can’t have visa if you don’t have this. You can’t watch them if you don’t have this. I know money can’t buy true happiness but maybe money can HELP you find one of your happiness. And one of our happiness is our idols.

Fourth is separation. Shinhwa is a popular boy group in South Korea but they separated. It’s the same with DBSK who received a lot of love from all over the world but yet they separated to each other. The groups G.O.D, H.O.T., Xander and Kibum of UKISS being kicked out of the group and even Han Geng of Super Junior who leaved the group is what we called separation. Though it’s hard to accept the truth that someday SuJu will disband also, we can’t do anything about it.

Fifth is the reality. We all know that nothing is permanent in this world (but change). So we all know that all people here on earth are artificial only. We will ALL grow old and die someday. And the reality is our idols will not be forever idols. Someday they will stop performing; they will not be a TV icon, and so on. So it means whether we like it or not, there will be a separation between us and them. Dagat nga nahati tao pa kayang di magkakilala. There will be a lot of changes that will take place as time pass by.

There are a lot of factors pa but since I’m lazy nga to type all of it, major lang ginawa ko.

Being a fan girl you need to be strong and ready to face everything. Just keep moving forward.

-EUNICE KING-